Cyclone is Leaving the Building
A letter to Real Deal Readers:
Due to my schedule I have not been around much lately, I guess that is rather obvious. I have had time to ponder the immediate future, including how to handle the continuation of the Real Deal. I am going to attempt to explain what I must do, and to a degree, why I must do it.
I can no longer continue to maintain this blog. While it has turned into something than I never imagined possible, and a wonderful experience overall, I have come to the conclusion that I cannot go on. The reasons are many, but only a few really matter to those of you who have remained faithful during its existence. I will try to express those reasons to all of you.
Attempting to write something informative and meaningful every day over the course of many months has taken its toll on me. At one point, it nearly consumed me. I have determined that the constant focus on the negative of the current state of America and the World at large, from the Boosh administration to the War(s) to the Economy and everything in between, is simply unhealthy for me. It has had implications far beyond me, touching my friends and family in a negative fashion. One cannot keep up with the daily disasters that this administration has created without becoming jaded. Don’t get me wrong, I have always been jaded to a degree and cynical to a greater degree, and always will be. I just have to step away to see the better things in life, things that really are out there. But, these things must be sought out, they do not automatically fall into your lap. When one concentrates solely on the negative, as I have for a long while, those things are not readily visible. Unfortunately, I do not have the talent to seek both.
Additionally, whatever happens to this country and this world is going to happen and there is nothing that I can do to stop it or change it, beyond what I have already done. Over the life of the Real Deal I have said many things, and I believe(d) them to all be true. Some have proven correct, some have not, and some are yet to be determined. But rest assured, I have at no time tried to mislead anyone or state something that I did not believe to be true. The times that I have been wrong, it came to you in honest fashion.
As I’ve said before, when I started this venture, I expected it to last the life of the Plame investigation (is that over yet?) and focus solely on that. As we all know, it grew way beyond that and evolved into something with a life of its own. But, I always told myself that when I reached the point where I could not give this place the attention that it deserves, I would simply walk away. I will not continue a project like this with a less than 100% focus and effort. Over the last couple of months, I have realized that I can no longer give it the required amount of time or effort necessary to keep the writing and content at the level that drew you here in the beginning and kept you here. So, it's time to go.
The group of people who have found their way here is astonishing, both in quantity and quality. I could not ask nor expect to find a better group of “cyber friends” who have hung with me through thick and thin. We have become a family in the truest sense of the word. Believe me; I have learned a whole lot more from each of you than you possibly could have learned from me. For that, I am eternally grateful.
As for the future, the Real Deal will remain here. I owe it to all of you to leave this place as is and we'll see what happens. If nothing else, it can be a “chat room” for all to use as you see fit. Or, should you feel the need to post something, feel free to send it to me or Murph and we’ll see that it gets put up. I will still drop in on occasion, keeping track of what goes on and making a comment now and then. If the urge strikes, I may even put up a post or two, especially if the world truly reaches the point that I believe it will soon reach. But, until then, I must let the chips fall where they may and search for the Good that is present in our world. I have to now take the time to focus on things necessary to take care of myself and my family, regardless of what the future brings.
Please continue to stay in touch, email me anytime you feel the urge. I am by no means falling off the face of the earth; I’m simply backing out of the ugly arena of politics to re-focus my mind and thoughts elsewhere. I want to stay in contact with all of you, I truly consider you dear friends. And, I still hope that one day we may all meet somewhere and shake hands or share a hug. When the time is right, we will know it and somehow make it happen. In the meantime, please stay in touch.
I now depart with a tinge of sadness and a big Thank You to all. But, I cannot do so without leaving you with one last Booshism. Never forget, this buffoon is the leader of the “free world.”
“The illiteracy level of our children are appalling.”
Washington, D.C.; January 23, 2004
Cyclone